Life Events

I’m a very complicated person and because of that some days are enchanted with happiness, irritability, or frustration. I’m always trying to do too much. I can’t help it, it’s just my nature. I don’t waste time feeling sorry for myself, so don’t worry. I like having fun and being carefree but for me that doesn’t come so easily. It’s almost beyond my control. At times I feel as if I carry the world on my shoulders. Why am I going on and on? I guess it’s because of a death in the family and when I loose someone close to me or someone I admired regardless of the relationship, I look for clarification about life and look for answers. I try to cover the conflicts within, conceal the feelings of the moment but all I managed to do is somehow detach myself from the world around me. I cope by balancing my life with discipline and taking control because it’s the only way I know how to stay on track and avoid an emotional crash.