My Journey to Personal Transformation

"When we face our fears and let ourselves know our connection to the power that is in us and beyond us, we learn courage." author unknown

My Journey to Personal Transformation
Step 1
Forgiveness
Enhances: Freedom
Balances/Counters:
Vengefulness

We all know the obvious symptoms that could be relieved by forgiveness — feeling so wounded that we want revenge, constant brooding over a long list of petty grievances, feeling so guilty we don't know how to approach someone we have offended, worry that the hurt could happen again. Bitterness and stubbornness can also be signs that forgiveness is called for, especially when these attitudes are associated with a need to be recognized as the one who is right.
In contrast to these limiting behaviors, which usually erect walls between ourselves and others, forgiveness is freeing. It means that we can move out of our previous position and move on with our lives. Best of all, it enables us to be reconciled with our neighbors and with God so that once again we feel part of the greater community of the spiritual life.

Where to start?

I’m looking truthfully at several hurts I have not been able to forgive. I have identified any associated feelings I may have, such as anger, denial, guilt, shame, or embarrassment. I’m imagining what it would be like to live without feeling these offenses. Then I’m letting them go.
I’m confessing my contribution to the conflict, making amends, and changing some behaviors.

My List:
God: For not making my son perfect and putting too much on my plate.
Me: For being such a blond and for having a baby way too young. For sometimes being critical and judgmental of others. For having my own special needs and deficits.
Amy: For living her life the way she see fit.
Elva: For being herself.
Mom: For being so traditional and not being the perfect mother.
Dad: For relation
Steve: For being too nice and for loving me too much.
Mx Voxx: For trying too hard and micromanaging not trusting her own judgments and decisions.
M7ch88l: oxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
M#r&an: For not being a father to our son.
Mxtxlda: Not supporting M#r&an to be a father to J*r*my.
XaXc9: For being you (more to this but I’ll keep it private)
#re#: For saying really rude remarks about me in front of me and for asking me how much I make in front of other people and really throwing me off and because I think I’m always nice to you.
S$at&&: Because……….


Tell myself that I only just started my journey and I will make plenty of mistakes. Hell, I probably already did somewhere in this posting.